Sooooo....

Saturday, 29 August 2009
yay! not so depressed anymore. so instead of raging, ill do a rant
this one has been dicussed for a while, remember, im not raging on anybody, its more on the situation =]
it's really frustrating when you having a conversation, then theres this awkwards silence...
thennn, the other person says sooooo........
-freeze here-
WTF
by saying sooooo... this puts you in a really awkwards position....
wtf im i supposed to say? when they say this, they want you to make a new topic for the conversation, as obviously the other topic sucked if the person resorted to soo....
but i rant about this, because the person is not making much of an effort to keep the conversation going, they are putting everything up to you to keep it going
YEH MAN, its pretty annoying
unless you purposely have a sooo.. topic in hand, i think itll come out something like this...

Person A:yeh, so thats how i got this bracelet for $10
Person B: (either goes for) Nice! that's awesome. Then theres a silence. (ill put 2nd option later)
Person A: (after 20 seconds when no one says anything....) soooooo.....
Person B: (with sooo... topic ready in hand comes blurting out) ah yeah, did i tell you about the time i made a spider web out of a glue stick?
Person A: wtf...

yeah obviously did this not work ^.^ - and no this wasnt a real conversation i had

On the other hand, if both commited to the conversation a bit...

Person A:yeh, so thats how i got this bracelet for $10
Person B: Wow!$10, thats soo cool. I got this awesome sock for $5! so cool
Person A: wtf....

K this didnt really work out either....
Well you get what i mean, put a bit more into the conversation, so the person doesnt just say stuff such as "nice" or "cool" and the convo goes awkward....then someone says sooo...., putting the conversation into a more awkward state
It's like by saying sooo.... and the other person cant respond, its their fault that the convo died

AND ANYONE WHO DOES SAY SOOOO... im not raging at you! hahahaha, its just a fact, im not gonna say bad stuff about u if u use this, but u know what i mean? just add more interest into the topic.Dw, ill still like those ppl who say sooo...! =] and im not picking on anyone in particular

laters....tt
~Chewyy

Parents Rage

Friday, 28 August 2009
Yeh, well anyways, yesterday i got raged at for not doing 4 weeks worth of north shore homework, so that was the reason i wrote that massive Asian Parents thing yesterday.
Anways, lectures turned into topics about future and stuff. so now, im gonna tell you what really happened yesterday....

-harp music- (flashback)
I was lying peacefully on my bed, talking to friends on msn, then i hear this "ai yooo"
this "ai yooo" was not one of those you say when u forget something, or hurt yourself.
This one was beyond pain, added with anger and disbelief. Then i hear "Will come out right now! (in chinese)" sighing, i stood up and walked outside to find my mum over my north shore bag... dun dun dun (dramatic music)
So she started yelling at me for not doing four weeks worth of north shore homework, and i could feel a massive lecture coming...so i just said "I told you i didnt want to do north shore...i mean i do the classwork and stuff, but id rather focus on my schoolwork then northshore work...." and walked off into my room and locked the door. Click.

Boom Boom Boom, mum comes charging down the hallway and bangs on my door, telling me to open it. After denying her for like 30 secs, i gave in and ran into my closet, which has a doorknob on both sides, and held the doork against the raging attacks of my mum. After i noticed her tone had gone from "im gonna kill you" to "im so angry, i wanna know why", i came out and tried to talk to her, but then it just turned into a lecture, so i found myself having to defend myself...against all the asian parents bs...
-harp music- (back to present)

Now im on a leash, forced to get A's in all subjects, ace north shore and chinese school and practise piano like crazyyy. And when i mean force , i mean blackmail.

-harp music- (flashback)
After my mum had calmed down n stuff, i did my work, and went to bed. then, my dad comes home at around 12-1am, and woke me up with a slap and started raging and lecturing me...for another half hour. This is what he said... "you're becoming so slack, why should i even send you to churchie. from now on, you study, and nothing else, and if you dont get A's in everything, I'm going to pull you out of churchie and send you to some state school..."

(back to present)
Yeh, some know my time schedule is forced to look sortve like this.
4pm get home
5pm shower, eat some stuff and start piano practise
6pm study/work
7pm dinner
8pm work
9pm work/sleep/read
10pm SLEEP

Beside that, no gaming or going out with friends (cant even before this), I'm allowed 10 minutes rest between each study block....

So yeh, im not going to follow this, this is riduculous, im gonna turn into a fricken nerd as it was taking the little social life i treasured so much...so im definately not going to follow this...

=O and my mum doesnt care if im tired, i mean going to school, work your ass off to do assignments and work, go to basketball training with my mental strength dead, catch the bus home with a shit heavy bag and a laptop (work on it), bus for 1 hour, get home at 7, is not classified as "tiring" for my mum. Then there, its study, dinner, study/piano, and sleep

Now i hope some of the only one person who reads this understands what i go through, and why my life can get really depressing

peace y'all...tt
~Chewyy

Asian Parents - Part 1

Thursday, 27 August 2009
I know this topic has been raged about for ages...so here, i go into detail on how my mum + dad are like old school asian parents. Plus it looks report formatish as im just doing so much of those, so sorry for the style.

Well, everyone knows old school asian parents are annoying, how they force you to do work, become a (one of the following): Doctor/Medicine (of any sort), Pharmacy, Chemist, Dentist, Politician, Lawyer (of any sort), Solicitor, Buisiness areas, awesome musician that earns lots of money/become famous, awesome architecture, and basically awesome anything so you earn lots of money. I swear, my mum must know everyone single job, and how much it pays, how long you have to do it in uni (for asians, tafe is not an option, its uni or u suck at being a child)

Throughout school, and sometimes in your life, they want you to become a leader, debate or do chess, weekend tutoring or just tutoring in general (from an young age), make you learn your background language (in depth) to "boost" ur op mark when you do it at school, maths c, the SUICIDE COURSE (maths b,c, eng, chem, phys, bio), become prefect, house/school captain, maintain the average level of asians (A) in school work, achieve awesome academic awards and get OP 1, obtain any sort of award (mum raged at me for not getting an "effort award" O.O, beat all the other kids in school, beat them in everything so your the best and never do drugs or join gangs (this is the only one i agree with). Oh and one last point on schooling, my mum is never satisfied with an A, only if i "beat" everyone in the class.

They basically want to control ur whole freakin life, right down to same ethnicity marraige, like somehow you bring dishonour if you marry a diff ethnicity, or simply they wont like them. When they grow old you give them ots of money (because, remember, youve got a good job!), they control which school you should go to, and if you dont make it they look down on you, which university, when you should date, who you should date, when you start a family, when you are allowed to go out with friends (for me...it's like...once a term? during the pupil free days n stuff...I used to go out more, so like 3-4 times in 3-4 weeks, however, i was told that i had become a liu mang (sortve like street gangster in chinese) for going out with friends, socializing and watching a movie, so I'm now stuck to North Shore on Saturdays, Chinese School on Sundays, and that leaves....no time to go out). not allowed to have long hair (associated to liu mang's), cut your hair like 5cm long so you just look weird, no hair colouring, make you play an instrument (usually piano/voilin or orchestra related stuff, NO electric guitars, drums etc), scold you bad because ur grades drop (massive lectures that usually turns into you getting shit OP mark because of dropping grades = no job = you suck), and send you off to tutoring (B+ in english = 1 term suffering in north shore).

I'll end with one more point, however im definately sure i havent covered all of the aspects. They always like to compare you to their friends children, ie. "wei shen me john du de zhen me hao...tan qing tan dao ba ji, ni hai zai tang"...soo "why does john study really well, getting A+'s and stuff, he's even finished grade 8 piano, why havent u finished it, u've already spent 9 months doing it." my respone: "I havent been doing it for 9 months, i was out for 3 month because i had a fricken lump in my chest wall, and you told me not to play piano" OH that brings another point...they are really over protective...i have never "slept over" at someones house for more than 5 times a year, and when you go out the curfew is usually around 5-6.

Ill end it here, i was supposed to do geography, and my mum was watching me, so thank god, she doesnt know english so she thought i was doing geo when i was typing this up.

Oh and just for starters, seeing as this is my first blog since i raged so much tonite, i usually type my thoughts as i go, so some bits may be really REALLY confusing.

peace...tt
~Chewyy