Tired of the world

...im tired of the world
idk, but i reckon people always go through this phase every now and then, well if they dont, they're very lucky =[
im just tired, tired of everything. tired of school, tired of people, tired of work, tired just sitting here and typing this blog to no one...
but i guess, when you feel like the worlds given up on you, you musnt give up on the world. right now, i guess...i just dont really want to talk to people much =[ idk, im not sure why, but it is just that way, but right now the only person who probs ill talk to is ezy, as he's in a similar stage i am in...

it is tiring to keep that smile on everyday, its tiring to try and please everyone, its tiring to make sure everyone you know is happy, and it is tiring to help other people =[

but i guess ill keep going, because there will be people out there needing that help, and maybe ill find some comfort knowing that their life is just that little bit better because of me.

right now, i see people laughing, see people smiling with friends, and i just think, i dont really want that...so ive sortve lonerised myself from the world, and i dont know why...

needless to say, ive opened myself up to music, and ill probably stay in this stage for a while. it is so relaxing and a relief, channeling my emotions through music...whether its listening to relaxing songs, or playing it on the piano

ive realised this might sound emo, but then again, no one reads this O.O and no one really cares, but ive learnt that its not important, as ive still got god, still got friends, and still got myself. so this isnt really emo, its sortve...internal happiness, where you just kinda feel at ease...and smile at all the beautiful things in the world

im gonna sit back from everything, make sure everyone else is happy, and just appreciate everything god has given us in this world

~Chewyy