Shanghai with thoughts.

mmm, time for something...its gotta be...how do i say it...a post...but like, more?
ah, yeh..., this is going to be a long blogpost.

*note...this post does not contain chinese characters due to the confusion it causes to lots of my friends ^^, so to make it simpler, i've put in pin yin, so don't get hissy at me for using it :P*

havent blogged in a while...
mainly due to the great wall. yeh...thats right, the big flaming great wall. no not the great wall of china, the LAME wall of china. the great, great, big, lame, flaming wall of china.

ofc im talking about the kfc here...where you can buy your morning warm soy drink there?! nahh joking...but yeh, the i was talking bout the censorship the government has on sites...the FIREwall.

and yes. the kfc here sells soy drink ==' wth.

so havent been on facebook/blogspot for a while now. ever since i left hk...which was on weds/thurs two weeks ago? the holidays have gone fast now that i look back on it, with only 1 week left. faster than the bloody insane reaction speed shanghai people have in traffic.

like WTH? where the heck did you learn to drive? no one really bothers with road rules, its weaving, dodging, braking suddenly, blaring horns, its insane...im so surprised that i've only seen one accident. likeseriously. its insane. fridge, i don't envy the people who learn to drive here. the drivers have insane reflexes, predictability skills and are quick witted. add the thousands of bicycles/scooters on the road, weaving around everywhere, plus pedestrians, its a crazy house to live in...

so dangerous crossing a road ==' scares the crap out of me as i always think im gonna get hit by a scooter/car/bus. i've made up the 'real' road rules

1. bus driver must always blare horn angrily if something gets in its way. eg. scooter.
2. road lines mean NOTHING. i mean nothing. its just a free for all, and if you see some other car coming you all try and find a way to squeeze in.
3. pedestrians are given the lowest priority when they cross the street. they give way to everything else. unless you're crossing at a big road.
4. use all uncoventional methods of transportation. scooters/bicycles no need for helmet, and just slap your dog on the floor of the scooter and its all good to go.
5. blare horn as much as you want. its normal.
6. swerve dangerously while changing lanes or turning, regardless of traffic. they will be forced to give way to you are you all crash.

anyways, talking about getting hit, i've been alright so far, -LOLOL, yeh, getting hit totally unrelated- stayed in the infamous motel branch 128 near nanjinglu east. such a cool place (Y) especially at night, with all the shopping and neon. right now, im staying in a hotel beside donghua uni. its pretty cool (Y) lots of pretty girls (i just find asians cuter..:]), and their cafeteria is great (Y) so much food. -drools- its not funny...i will not be satisfied with the quality/taste/and price of food when i return to aus..compared to china. at the uni cafeteria...1 meal = $1 aus... thats with a full bowl of rice, with meat dish/vegetable dish.

seriously...the cafeteria offers around 100 dishes. its like a buffet. you take your tray, go up, point to what you want, beep your card on the machine, chefs gives you a serving of w/e, and you're good. plus they have drinks and everything too. absolutely amazing, food is great, good system, i prefer it over restaurants -hehe-
and the rice...like wtf. 7c au. for a bowl of rice. fml. i mean, screw aus the price is right. i mean, price of rice.

everything is cheap as here. though you got to watch out for fakes. but -sigh- stuff is ridiculously cheap here its not funny =[ and being me again...i always never end up buying much to begin with.

talk about being cheap,
i've been to two neighboring towns of shanghai. one of them was lke wu zhen/zheng? dunno, it was where maodun grew up, a famous figure in chinas literature development. the designs of the village is really nice...really relaxed, and his palce was so good. had a small creek running through it, so it was sortve like venice with the all the gondola like boats. and the vegetation was cool. oh wow, like...spring was a bit late this year...so that's why it's freezing atm. (so. prepared. for. winter. when it comes, ill laugh at it, and it'll get sad, as its gonna be like summer for me) though one type of flower is blossoming already...idk what it is...like some yellow flower...its really quite beautiful, seeing the countryside fields just full of the bright yellow flowers. talking bout flowers and stuff...the trees and stuff here are really quite cool ^^

i like these types of vegetation, and they even plant fower beds/pots along roads. they look really cool. and the parks are so much better imo. though, the main difference is that everything is planned out and symmetrical, which lacks the freedom the vegetation grows in aus.

wow...this is turning out to be a long blog. i started this 40 minutes ago...guess im doing other stuff too. brb, gonna go wander around outside, and get something hot to drink.

backk. ahhh. its cold ==' freezing brrrrr. yeh anyways...the villages were pretty cool, lots of narrow cobbled streets filled with shops. and cool plants/rivers (Y) -good summary aye? lol ^^-

been taking the buses mostly, im gonna be off to huang shan soon...on tues. transportation here is really efficient too...with like, subway/metro, normal roads, trains, busses (they don't bother with timetables here...its usually 1 every 5 mins) as well as the high rise express roads. crazy...they like...build roads 7m high, acts like a highway around the city. very confusing as it criss crosses everywhere.
the city also looks really epic during night with its lights (Y)

been visiting relatives and such...and being dragged by my mum to do shopping is so boring...as i always end up not wanting to buy anything, and stand there waiting for 3 hours. so ive only done a LITTLE bit of shopping. ;)

my chinese is getting better...and im used to shanghai life now...and i quite enjoy it. i cant mostly understand what people are saying...and i feel like i can speak/read better now ^^, very happy with that. and...i dunno, i just love the language, so im gonna work hard at chinese in school/chinese school from now on! heh. -determined face-

speaking of which...ezy yet again got me into reading manga. like a man possessed as i had nothing else to do in a hotel room...i read like crazy. finished love hina, and up to date with fairy tail (Y) both GREAT manga...though internet is slow in loading it =[

sighhh. 11:38 here now. which means. 1:38 for you guys over there. im like...in the past ==' far out.

1 hour and a bit has passed...still havent finished my blog.

-sigh- its been 2 weeks...and i feel a completely different person. living like this...i feel more matured? ==' i find small trivial things less and less appealing. things you would do as a teenager...as in young teenager. theres still lots of fun to be had, but...its just a different sort of fun. but what now? i have many friends who imo are still immature, but are great people. i feel as if i've lost a connection with them. where i used to laugh, i now just smile slightly...and find it less funny ==' what do i do now? im confused...i feel like im separating from that sort of teenage life, and into a more matured one? but my friends aren't. dont get me wrong..i still will laugh at immature things...but i guess...friends that i feel truly comfortable with, i feel like i still hold a genuine connection with.

although i try hard to keep my friendship with ones younger than me...its just...-sigh- hard to explain...

tbh, theres only a handful of people i truly feel being comfortable with, like geing around a sibling. and again...tbh, they are only from my school. i know we will always smile with each other, and have a great time. and again, this doesnt mean i will not try my hardest in befriending more people and increasing the bonds of friendships i already have. also, the fact i only feely truly home/comfrtable with people at my school is probably cus i never socialise THAT much outside of school. its always tutor/school on weekends, so during school i developed my friendship over the years. but yeh...that's just...how i see it. people say i look old. people here assume i already finished uni and work? (am i that old? better get on that olay cream with 7 magic powers or w/e) but...i feel old too...like im not cut out for the things i used to find appealing. i guess...i find other things that draw out true happiness for me.

in china...i frequently listen to my ipod, seeing as im with no one besides my mum and grandmum ==' and this has lead me to rediscover my love of dancing...like, i know there are people out there who think some people dance just to show off...but...it's just really hit home in me. you feel alive. the passion and love of it flowing through your body, moving with the music, being the music. and inside...when you do those moves, you just...glow? i dont know...i feel like i connected through a whole new level now. once my stuff has been sorted, i'll definitely get back into dancing, (as a hobby/interest though! still aiming for that med course) and im gonna work hard in what i set out to do now. because i can do it if i try. and instead of giving up, ill keep working.

yes. i do have my dreams in this world. and i used to just see them, and think they were dream, nothing ill be able to do in my life time. but now i realize. i. can. do it. you just have to try. and take the first step. its a scary first step, as you always have doubts on yourself. but as they say...a great, long journey begins with the smallest of steps. the first step. just will your feet to go on. and you will make it.

no point in seeing something and giving up on it. take action. i think of all the people who have left a lasting impression on this world. what makes them different from us? it's their courage. their willingness. their determination. we can all do what we want. if we just start the journey, instead of sitting around and watching the prize.

i've blogged for enough. mums still with her friend talking in the other room...and i doubt you read all of that carefully ^^, its alright, i dont blame you. i sortve tried to make it entertaining as much as i could...though i guess in the end it's your choice to read it. if you read this far diligently, i thank you for reading this. hope you all are well, and remember to cherish your life. and believe in yourself. for the sake of a better you. a better world. and a better future.

~Chewyy

blog time: 1:40 minutes. including other stuff. ohhh its april too...mmm, my favourite month of the year. and no its not just cus my birthday is coming up...lol ^^, i just find the world to be cooler during april ;)wow...ill be able to drive soon. feeling anxious mixing with anticipation.